不謹慎遊戯 / Unscrupulous play

2023-08-23 2024-01-03

Chan Rio

先日とある女王様と、とあるマゾとでとても不謹慎なことをして遊びました。
写真なんて載せられないのでその日使った道具でも貼っておきます。

不特定多数の人たちに話すことははばかられるような事。
とはいえ、そもそもそういう事ばかりをやっていたのでした。

あまりにも日常になってしまっていて忘れていた。
もともと軽率に人には話さないけれど。

どういうわけかインターネットでは当たり前のように
「あれをやった、これをやった」と報告していたけれど、
本来は隠すべきこと。秘め事。そう簡単に言えないこと。

原点に立ち返ったような、初心にかえったような、
初めて人に蹴りを入れた時の、頭を踏みつけた時の、唾をはきかけた時の高揚感。

表面的な部分だけではなくて、心の底から湧いてくるような、
言葉では言い表せない、写真にも表れない、

ひとりで思い出してはにやにやしてしまうような。
そういう気持ちを、ちゃんと大事にしたいなあと思いました。

The other day I played with a certain mistress and a certain masochist doing something very inappropriate.

I can't post pictures, so I'll just post the tools we used that day.

It is something that I am not allowed to talk about to a large number of people.

However, that is what we were doing in the first place.

It had become so routine that I had forgotten about it.

I don't talk about it indiscreetly to people.

Somehow, on the Internet, it seems to be a matter of course.

I had been reporting "I did this, I did that," as if it were a matter of course,

It is something that should be hidden. Something that should be hidden. Things that cannot be said so easily.

It was like going back to the starting point, back to the beginning,

The first time I kicked someone, the first time I stomped on someone's head, the first time I spit on someone's face, the first time I felt elated.

It's not just a superficial feeling, but something that comes from the bottom of your heart,

Words cannot describe it, nor can pictures show it,

It is the kind of feeling that makes you smile when you remember it alone.

I wanted to cherish these feelings.

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